I don’t really know what I wouldn’t do given the right circumstances. If I genuinely stopped checking and managing myself internally through the lens of logic and composure
I think the fucked up things I could/ would do are not just limited to physical acts.
I do definitely enjoy doing what I’d describe as at least mildly sadistic things already, particularly when it comes to cock and balls. I think this mainly centres around emasculation of my subject.
I am interested to see how I feel about other forms of physical harm, particularly in the context of catharsis. Will it only be just that, or will it evolve into sadism, will I start to enjoy it? Will this be a gateway into something new and as yet, largely unexplored.
Once I get over the “moral dilemma” of abusing someone, I am still fascinated by the idea of getting someone into a position where they “can’t eat, sleep or breathe without me” and using that state to my benefit. I’ve come to the conclusion it is only “wrong” if the person has not consented to being led into that way of existence.
Treating someone as a resource without needing to care about their feelings. That’s what friends and therapists are for… emotional support.
CNC… that could encompass so much, almost limitless possibilities depending on the limits or lack thereof